When I started this blog, it was my intention to leave something special for our three girls and their families. Everyone seems to be "blogging". It took very little encouragement from Kathleen, and I too found myself a blogger who has a lot to learn; but is loving it! Thankfully the Lord had given me MANY hours mowing our lawns to think about this new season of my life. Seemingly all too fast, the summer came when I was not planning the next year of home school and buying curriculum. Our family had changed! Our daughters were grown and were strong "arrows in their father's quiver". Each daughter landed squarely in the middle of the target God had chosen for them and they are now busy doing His work. Praise the Lord!! The books are all neatly put away in hopes that someday one of our girls will be homeschooling their children and the books will be "dusted off" and put back into service. Yes, I know that new books would be needed etc.; but as education tries to change to a new and better ways, many of the old tried and true applications are as applicable today as they were in the old days!!!! I believe it was once said, "The more things change, the more they stay the same!"
Currently, I am caring for my Mother who will be turning 92 years old on December 12, 2010. What a blessing and growing time this is for me! Role reversal is never easy for any of the players in the game of life! After all I realize that I will always see our girls as "our babies" and want to protect them and not lean and depend on them. That is my job!! And so it is with my Mother. But with that thinking, comes heartbreak for both mother and daughter. I have realized that there will come a day when I too will have to see at Kathleen, Kristen and Kathryn in a total new and STRANGE way. Instead of caring for them with my hands, their hands will be caring for me. I pray that God will give me grace and wisdom at that time to help them step into their new role and realize that it is the circle of life. And what a wonderful blessing it is!!! As my Grandmother McMillan's mother once said, "It is better have a Mother in the corner, than no mother at all." I can only say a hearty "AMEN"!!! It is my prayer that in the coming days of Mother's life, that I can give her the love, protection and yes guidance that she need. But more than that, I pray I can make changes in my life now; and that those changes will become so much a part of me, that when that time comes for me I will be able to in some small way to still be an active Proverbs 31 woman and a blessing to my family.
During those many hours of mowing Mother's and our lawns I have reflected back over our life more than once! I so remember the day Olin took me up to his dorm room at MU and read Proverbs 31 to me. Oh my, what a women!!! Was that what Olin was wanting in a wife, could I become someone like her? Oh God help me!!!!!! And that He did in so many different ways. I have a wonderful example in my Mother. Daddy was killed when I was in 7th grade. Mother was more concerned about helping me than she was about herself. She was so very strong, although I am sure she cried herself to sleep many nights. Mother was always and continues to be there for me and our family. I am a very blessed daughter to have been given such a wonderful gift in my Mother!!! I pray that I will be able to do for our girls as she did/does for me!! My second Mother, Olin's mother-Mary, showed me so many ways to fulfill the Proverbs 31 women's mission. God could not have given me a more perfect "second Mom" and I love her so very much and miss her ever so very much! I am so very blessed to have called her Mom and been taught by her so much of her wisdom! Strangely enough each of our daughters played a part in my journey of trying to be the Proverbs 31 women in the Olin Miller family. Each daughter, in her own way , came to me with the same idea of being a Proverbs 31 women to a younger friend or neighbor. We talked about how each woman, young or old, was an example to someone in "her circle". It was so wonderful to hear their plans to help a younger friend! I again turned to God and thanked Him for the blessing of children with a soft heart for Him!
I hope in some small way, for everyone who reads this blog, you will be strengthen in your belief in God, learn something new, or have had an enjoyable time reading a post that puts a smile on your face and a day brighter that will help you be a Proverbs 31 woman in life. We are all blessed to be a blessing and we all have many blessings. Sometimes we just need a gentle reminder! I know I certainly do!!
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